Archive for April, 2006

Backsliding

In Pilgrim’s Progress by John Bunyan Christian and Hopeful have a sobering discussion about the reasons and ways in which professing Christians backslide.

HOPE. Now, since we are talking about him, let us a little inquire into the reason of the sudden backsliding of him and such others.

CHR. It may be very profitable, but do you begin.

HOPE. Well then, there are in my judgment four reasons for it-

1. Though the consciences of such men are awakened, yet their minds are not changed; therefore, when the power of guilt weareth away, that which provoked them to be religious ceaseth, wherefore they naturally turn to their own course again, even as we see the dog that is sick of what he has eaten, so long as his sickness prevails, he vomits and casts up all; not that he doth this of a free mind (if we may say a dog has a mind), but because it troubleth his stomach; but now, when his sickness is over, and so his stomach eased, his desire being not at all alienate from his vomit, he turns him about and licks up all, and so it is true which is written, “The dog is turned to his own vomit again” (2 Peter 2:22).[302] Thus I say, being hot for Heaven, by virtue only of the sense and fear of the torments of hell, as their sense of hell, and the fears of damnation, chills and cools, so their desires for Heaven and salvation cool also. So then it comes to pass, that when their guilt and fear is gone, their desires for Heaven and happiness die, and they return to their course again.[303]

2. Another reason is, they have slavish fears that do overmaster them; I speak now of the fears that they have of men, for “the fear of man bringeth a snare” (Prov. 29:25). So then, though they seem to be hot for Heaven, so long as the flames of hell are about their ears, yet, when that terror is a little over, they betake themselves to second thoughts; namely, that it is good to be wise, and not to run (for they know not what) the hazard of losing all, or, at least, of bringing themselves into unavoidable and unnecessary troubles, and so they fall in with the world again.

3. The shame that attends religion lies also as a block in their way; they are proud and haughty, and religion in their eye is low and contemptible; therefore, when they have lost their sense of hell and wrath to come, they return again to their former course.

4. Guilt, and to meditate terror, are grievous to them. They like not to see their misery before they come into it; though perhaps the sight of it first, if they loved that sight, might make them fly whither the righteous fly and are safe. But because they do, as I hinted before, even shun the thoughts of guilt and terror, therefore, when once they are rid of their awakenings about the terrors and wrath of God, they harden their hearts gladly, and choose such ways as will harden them more and more.

CHR. You are pretty near the business, for the bottom of all is, for want of a change in their mind and will. And therefore they are but like the felon that standeth before the judge, he quakes and trembles, and seems to repent most heartily, but the bottom of all is the fear of the halter; not that he hath any detestation of the offence, as is evident, because, let but this man have his liberty, and he will be a thief, and so a rogue still, whereas, if his mind were changed, he would be otherwise.

HOPE. Now, I have showed you the reasons of their going back, do you show me the manner thereof.[304]

CHR. So I will, willingly.

1. They draw off their thoughts, all that they may, from the remembrance of God, death, and judgment to come.

2. Then they cast off by degrees private duties, as closet prayer, curbing their lusts, watching, sorrow for sin, and the like.

3. Then they shun the company of lively and warm Christians.

4. After that, they grow cold to public duty, as hearing, reading, godly conference, and the like.

5. Then they begin to pick holes, as we say, in the coats of some of the godly; and that devilishly, that they may have a seeming colour to throw religion (for the sake of some infirmity they have espied in them) behind their backs.

6. Then they begin to adhere to, and associate themselves with, carnal, loose, and wanton men.

7. Then they give way to carnal and wanton discourses in secret; and glad are they if they can see such things in any that are counted honest, that they may the more boldly do it through their example.

8. After this, they begin to play with little sins openly.

9. And then, being hardened, they show themselves as they are. Thus, being launched again into the gulf of misery, unless a miracle of grace prevent it, they everlastingly perish in their own deceivings.[305]

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[tags]Bunyan, Pilgrim’s Progress, backsliding, Christianity, Christian life[/tags]

Posted on April 30th, 2006 by Ryan Wentzel  |  No Comments »

This is the End

No, I’m not talking about a Doors song. It’s the end of another semester and that means I’m quite busy with final projects and preparing for exams. I’m actually enjoying the projects this semester.

eStore - In Client/Server Computing our final project involves creating an online computer parts store using JSP, Java servlets, and XML.

Time Tracker - In Software Engineering our final project involves creating a web-based project time tracking application using PHP and MySQL.

Tiny Computer - In Physics 301 (Digital Electronics) we must build a tiny computer. This project utilizes nearly all of the smaller circuits we’ve built this semester. I’m really enjoying this project! My partner and I should be finished with this early next week.

[tags]school, college, finals, programming, PHP, Java, MySQL[/tags]

Posted on April 29th, 2006 by Ryan Wentzel  |  No Comments »

Virtualization

I’m writing this using Firefox inside of a Linux virtual machine that is running on top of Windows XP. Yes, I am a geek.

[tags]virtualization, virtual machine, VMWare, Linux[/tags]

Posted on April 27th, 2006 by Ryan Wentzel  |  No Comments »

Discerning Reader (In case you didn’t know)

Tim Challies is the new owner of Discerning Reader. Instead of selling books though, the new Discerning Reader is a place for book reviews. Check it out.

[tags]books, theological books, book reviews, Discerning Reader, Tim Challies[/tags]

Posted on April 26th, 2006 by Ryan Wentzel  |  No Comments »

Various Pieces of Information

A few weeks ago I subscribed to Joe Thorn’s Flickr feed. He takes great photos and I encourage you to check them out (he also blogs at Words of Grace).

For some reason I’ve forgotten until tonight to add Josh Brisby to my blogroll. My apologies Josh. Josh is a fellow member at Grace Bible Church and when he gets around to posting there is plenty to chew on.

[tags]blogs, photos[/tags]

Posted on April 25th, 2006 by Ryan Wentzel  |  2 Comments »